Wednesday, February 29, 2012


I like who I am. I'm weird, sing badly and often, dance all the time, dress odd, and tend to wear a lot of hats and I don't just mean that metaphorically.


I like me. I'm just afraid that you won't like me. So afraid that I don't let anyone see the real me. I have no idea why I am so terrified of rejection. Or why my inner world is so private that I don't let anyone in.

If I say that I don't care what you think of me then I'm lying. Boldly. Badly.

I change who I am all according to who is in the room. I can't have friends from different areas of my life in the same room with me. I simply wouldn't know who to be.

But I am trying SO HARD to be me, the integrated me, all the time around everyone. It's my goal for this year. And if that fails, this lifetime.
Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?  ~Fanny Brice
My fear is that if I'm not the true me more often, then one day I might completely forget who I am. And what fun would that be?