Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Peacemaker

When I'm sitting at my great-grandparents' house I find myself always entertaining the same thoughts. Who could be sitting next to me right now? I think of the empty spot beside me on the sofa where my non-existent significant other could be.

I don't know why but when I'm there it inevitably comes to mind. Part of it is I am always thinking about how they probably wouldn't approve of anyone I could bring for them to meet.

I love them dearly but they are very, very traditional Southerners. (They're also in their 90's) I know that if they knew my real thoughts and stances on things it would break their hearts and make them disown me. That's probably why I don't say anything upsetting or controversial. Then again, I am a middle-child so I am naturally a peacemaker. I don't like to upset anyone about anything. This is why I don't voice so many of my thoughts. I fear offending people.

I just want everyone to be happy and get along. I like to stay friends with everyone and (as far as I know) I don't have any enemies.
Like everyone else I have friendships that have fallen apart, but unlike most everyone else, I usually stay acquaintances with them. I wish them "happy birthday" and will always, weirdly, be available to talk to. I stay on good terms even if it turned bad for awhile. Because I can't stand to have someone unhappy over me.

But back to my great-grandparents; they can't hear and can hardly see so conversation is futile. Explanations impossible. In all likelihood, they will never meet my significant other anyway given their ages and my lack of relationships right now.

All-in-all, I think about possible significant others whilst sitting upon their sofa. And I will always wonder what they would make of "him."

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